Blogs, writing and being on The Spectrum.
I love reading blogs. Is that even a thing these days? What I love about blogs is that entry into someone else's life. I have such an immense gratitude for bloggers who are chronic chroniclers. They are so generous in opening their lives to strangers such as me. These people are so trusting and I love their pure willingness to share the details of their lives. That is something I struggle with and I would like to change that.
The truth is that being an adult autistic woman, I've spent my life researching other people, it's how I learnt to speak the social language... I studied people and took on their mannerisms, demeanour and language. This is called "Masking" and autistic girls and women are usually masters of this, much to the detriment to their sense of selves and energy. It's what we did to survive. For me, the result has been difficulty in revealing my true self. When I was younger, I didn't even know who my true self was. This has changed as I've aged, but I still tend to mask and am quite reserved around anyone from outside my family.
I have always kept a journal and couldn't imagine a life without writing, it's my most comfortable method of communication. I hope to challenge myself here and reveal my life, my likes and dislikes, my home and daily life. I really want to explore further, who I really am.
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